So now I need to finish this off. I should have found an answer. I should have, but I really haven’t. Not entirely anyway. Here goes.
I have been at our house in Waterfall, alone for near a month now and while I am a bit of a loner, I’m not doing well without Steph and Eliana. I miss them and that has made me realise the most important thing I think I needed too: I can’t live with out them and I really want to be around to see the future with them. And I would do anything for them.
We are going to move to JoBurg and that means that this dream of riding bikes in the best place to ride in South Africa is over, at least the part where we get to do it everyday. I’m okay with that. In fact I’m more excite to spend time with my little family, and my sister and my in-laws than I have ever been about a DH race. I need then around. I’m not to un- inspired to ride the cool trails in and around Joies either.
Am I selling my DH bike? If the price is right. Do I want to?Not really! If it makes life better for Steph and E then I’ll do it though. No questions asked. I don’t think I need to let go of everything, I don’t think i need to stop dreaming, I think I just have to way it all up a bit better and accept that there are going to be compromises, but non of them should stop me from following my dreams. Other wise I’m not being a good dad am I?
“If you have a dream, you have to protect it. People can’t do something themselves, they want to tell you, you can’t do it. You want something, go get it, period!” The Pursuit of Happyness